Raw unedited feelings and words interest me so this is yesterday evening raw, slept on and unedited. Maybe I'll play with it later, maybe not.
Because I am not super human
Because I am not super human there are no clean clothes; I've not done any washing for days possibly weeks and I don't want to do any today.
Because I am not superhuman I'm not sure I can be bothered to clear away the dinner things and leave the kitchen sparkling for the next morning.
Because I am not super human the cupboards are bare, I have not been shopping again and I don't feel like cooking so we are eating beans on toast again.
Because I am not super human I am having withdrawal symptoms from giving up smoking.
Because I am not superhuman the house is a mess and I am too tired to clean.
Because I am not super human I am tired.
Because I am not super human I have shouted at my kids because a heap of stuff has got on top of me and their constant requests and petty squabbling have pushed all the wrong buttons.
Because I am human I make mistakes, say the wrong things.
Because I am human I sometimes feel disheartened at the struggle.
Because I am human I realise my struggles are nothing compared to those others face.
Because I am human I need a hug and some unconditional love despite all the above.
Yes I have done things today, things that are perpetual in motion; steps, however small, moving forwards, but in the face of all the housework and boring crap I came home to all I yearn for is a sacred space to curl up in, read, write, drink a cup of tea whilst it is still hot, indulge in the humble things I now regard as treats.